Awful.

[Verse 1]
Awful, awful, thoughts is dreadful, comma
Hostile, hostile, I don't like the drama
Play more with my feelings, I'ma break down
Push my buttons, I'm gon' end up face down
Awful, awful, ready for departure
Feels like Gospel will not help me nada
I been drowning, deep in my own sorrow
Every day I question my tomorrow
Can I prosper, or will I end up an early fossil?
Lord, take my pain away 'cause I been struggling everyday
There has to be a better way, there's got to be a better place
My mental state is crumbling like ruins, scratch that
My mental state is actually in ruins, that's that

[Verse 2]
And I'm surrounded by pеople that love me but I feel alonе
My heart is feeling like that feeling you get in an empty home
It's not a home, it's only a house
Yet I don't even have a thing to panic about
Wishing on a shooting star that died a million years ago and Lord
Who's the one that's got my back when I trip?
Are You in control if I'm the captain of my ship?