​autumn

[Verse 1]
Leave it in the past, I wrote to Dear Annie
Tryna find me a violet in the sun like Danny
The currents carry me and I can't fight them
Used to hate the bad guys but now I'm like them
Used to wanna pack up and go on a flight then
Throw away my feelings but I just can't hide them
I'm kinda good at making mistakes
Kinda good at separating all the real from the fake
KInda good at getting lied to, getting spit in my face
Getting kicked in my teeth, good at keeping my place
I didn't fight for what I believed in
Told her take care, I guess that we not speaking
Ended on quick quick, ain't no beefing
Had to go and slip, trip to end my season
And enter to a new one, I been tight with the masses
I need to be more than average, I need to rev my attacking
I need to fix on myself, I need to find me a reason
To keep on going, keep with the faith when the storm be blowing
Trust in God even when He don't be showing
Hebrews 12, eating my fill of my daily bread
Thoughts come, past be assaulting my head
Gotta get up from my bed instead, though (you know what it is)

[Bridge]
And I was thinking "Finally"
'Cause by that time I was dead tired
But once we reached that town, it was small
But it gave me so much hope
I been on my own as of late
Sitting in a dark room pondering my fate
Considering just quitting and
Putting in my two weeks in this life
Synonym for a hard time is a catastrophe
Often feel like the demons done mastered me
Kinda gone crazy, kinda lost my way
These storms been going on longer than usual
I been dressed for a funeral
All-black fit, welcome to the future, I'm done
I'm done

[Verse 2]
Can't get the past out my mind these days
Can't get past all the mess that it made, I pray
God, please show Yourself
I'm all alone now and I need Your help
The gold's been gleaming, I ain't been eating
The silver lining's snapped and I laugh 'cause I need it
I'm trapped in the quicksand, lodged in the memories
Can't even break free, no more energy
Hourglass cutting my days down
Time getting shorter, watch as the sand get ground
I'm a disciple, I read my Bible
But I do not live it, I can't believe it
Strengthen my feeble arms and weak knees, how?
Tested but I want the answers, now
Can't lose heart, I can't grow weary
Can't depart, my eyes all teary
I'm finna make it, I'ma keep running
Draped in my blessings, swear I look so stunning
Demons keep coming but I cut them hoes down
With the sword of my God like it's nothing, bubbling

[Outro]
Fix my eyes on Jesus, Lord knows that I need Him
Blessings multiply, pray I fix my eyes
Fix my eyes on Jesus, pray I fix my eyes