Artbreak

I'm attracted to complicated women
My boy laughed at that like he ain't ever met a woman who isn't
... complicated
Maybe I agree
Maybe communication is the key
Maybe it was never them
Maybe the problem was always me
I just need someone to understand me
I just need a little realness around me
How could you
Leave me, worse off, than how you found me
Glass half full I had my hopes up
Never thought I'd be telling people we broke up
I never saw this coming
All this loving
Lost when heartbreak shows up
Tell me more lies, tell me more lies
Tell me how you'll never leave
Tell me how you're all mine
Tell me all I ever do is waste your time
I'll say I'm broken you tell me that you're fine
That's okay I'm fine with it
It's me and my kismat
Having conversations with the ghosts of my past that I live with
Yeh that's heartbreak.. inspiring this artbreak

I tried to push you out without believing
I know I should have let you be my guide
I tried and failed so many times along the way
Can't help but close my eyes
I've been living in my own world
Lost in a place so cold
Telling me that I've changed like it's something that I don't know
But I know for sure
I could let you go for love
For love

Dear Dad
It's been a year since you left us
I was blaming myself like I did something wrong and I messed up
This year hasn't been the best one
There's so many jobs that you didn't get done
...how heartbroken you left Mum

We've been tryna fill your shoes
That's impossible to do
And I'm just tryna do
Everything that you would do
Just so it feels like normality
How do you bounce back from tragedy?
How do you cry when you feel so numb?
How do you stop floods of tears when they come?
Eyes so red and raw
Asking why you left us for
I've been having bad days
Doing wrong and wondering what Dad say
I avoid all your pictures
Lost faith I ain't reading any scriptures
I don't want to take advice from people who ain't been through this telling me to just listen
Ain't nothing you can tell me
How I'm living really isn't healthy
Lord help me
Through this heartbreak
Inspiring this artbreak

I tried to push you out without believing
I know I should have let you be my guide
I tried and failed so many times along the way
Can't help but close my eyes
I've been living in my own world
Lost in a place so cold
Telling me that I've changed like it's something that I don't know
But I know for sure
I could let you go for love
For love