This is the first track to be released from Baker’s second LP Turn Out The Lights. It was released alongside the album pre-order on August 17, 2017.
The song describes a breakdown in a relationship, either due to mental health issues or drug addiction (which Baker has covered in previous songs). Th...
[Verse 1]
I'm staying in tonight
I won't stop you from leaving
I know that I'm not what you wanted, am I?
Wanted someone who I used to be like
Now you think I'm not trying
I don't argue, it's not worth the effort to lie
You don't want to bring it up
And I already know how it looks
You don't have to remind me so much
How I disappoint you
Suggest that I talk to somebody again
That knows how to help me get better
And 'til then I should just try not to miss any more
Appointments
[Verse 2]
I think if I ruin this
That I know I can live with it
Nothing turns out like I pictured it
Maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases
I think if I fail again
That I know you're still listening
Maybe it's all gonna turn out all right
And I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is
[Bridge]
I have to believe that it is
I have to believe that it is
(I have to believe it, I have to believe it)
I have to believe that it is
(Probably not, but I have to believe that it is)
[Chorus]
And when I tell you that it is
Oh, it's more for my benefit
Maybe it's all gonna turn out all right
Oh, I know that it's not, but I have to believe that it is
Appointments was written by Julien Baker.
Appointments was produced by Julien Baker.
Julien Baker released Appointments on Thu Aug 17 2017.
From an interview with Pitchfork:
The song is about the isolation of thinking that you’re incapable of communicating the emotions in your head while you’re also trying to exert the effort to be there for someone else, and to be what they want. Over the past years of getting to a healthier place, it...