Another Way to Live

(Sample: chubbywater5 blah blah blah blah blah)
First, to confess:
The absence of success hurts
Holds me depressed, yes
I do posess an ability to progress
And got less. My best not to regress
I was thinking infinite with too few words to write--
Some accurate description to the meaning of life--
To waste time, doubt'n reasons for existence
To not wake up one morning havin' just missed it
I'm in my mind on this mountain I climb
I'm try'n to leave an equal sign
And seekin' to find eternal sunshine
So wrong, so tempting to walk on resenting
This lonely livin', the love I've given
Death is imminent
On a mission, I'm hidden
One in a billion wishing well wishes
Well, which is a bitch if noone listens
But, this is my life in disturbance since
I recognized impermanence
Kinda why I burn this sense'
I scrambled my mind--dextromethorphan hydrobromide
When Highway 1's my home high to low-tide
To represent the psych ward
And try to pry an empty box open
I cry inside like Bach and Chopin, classic
Southwest of Oakland's a itty bitty Russell City:
Gotta wicked hustle without any pity
Testing time's patience as an occupation to solve equations
And escape the complication
Question sanity through useless fantasies
Superstition, missin' prayers laced with profanity
Where we exist in this longshot reality—
Gorillas in the Mist
Got a pawn shop mentality
So, an O.G. showed me to grow trees
To complete the clone seed
Live to see me sow, reap
It's not Orange County
But more county orange
With a no bail warrant
That's out moppin' floors
And minutes in the days to stop to watch the clock
Hour a day limit out the cell, but not the box
And my mind got depressed
Real stressed with the burden
And when you're locked in hell
Your regrets run concurrent
But these days, to maintain the mainframe
To explain, my soul complains
I got this hole, this pain that eats my membrane
And leaves me insane
I'm like Cypress Hill: I like life high to the hilt
Till the wave of the strain subsides with the guilt—
Product of a tough life that coulda' been harder
And if you had it that way, I'd like to beg your pardon
I did what I did with what I wasn't given
And it is what it is, but even when it isn't
So what does too deeply bruised mean to you?
Cuz to me it means don't believe the dream will come true
Soul empty Eyes lie staring
No vacancy
Sleep in a dream
There ain't no wakin' me
I've written timelines only fate can read
Spent with latency
I'm fixin' breaks in me