amanda pt. ii

[Intro]
The—the—the—the—the—the—the—the—the—
The funeral
It's Chelsea Baby!
Well, I'm, I'm his number one fan
And I've been here since day one
Yo

[Verse 1]
Daddy used to say what you don't know can't you
But following His image, should've listened to His words too
I'm jabbed up, all 'cause I ain't know how to avert the truth
Let me write this open letter people can observe through
I fell in love when I was twelve, same school, same class
The gymnast with the curly hair, we hit it off pretty fast
I was deep in puppy love, I'd overdo it with the barking
Every time I made a move, she humbled me, I had to park it
She always kept me grounded, and that kept me attracted
Swift mind, always dreaming, loved the way that you imagined
Even though I couldn't bag, that was still my ride-or-die
Until my bag would overflow with vengeance tucked in my reactions
You will never know just how much time on you I spent
Bitterness lingers in my heart, it's hard for me to pretend
My tongue has burned a million bridges that she doesn't care to mend
And now she got another nigga (Well, who is he?), he's my best friend

[Bridge 1]
(Let the tears dry, let my heart breathe)
(Let my soul rest, let my mind grieve)
Yeah

[Verse 2]
Is it my pride or am I right to view the situation this way?
4:00 AM, up, questioned if my passion was a mistake
I used to pray for knowledge, now I'm longing for my ignorance
Every ounce of curiosity replaced my innocence
I know I need to let it go, I know I need to grow up
And stop waiting at the alter for a woman who won't show up
But I'm always all or nothing, that's just part of my humanity
Did not prepare a plan B, now I wonder
Where's my high school sweetheart? Where's my teenage romance?
This American love story ain't come with a second chance
The Black Norman Rockwell, a goddamn man-child
Just color me navy blue and label me "too wild"
What is it about him? What is it I don't have?
Just tell me my flaws so I can gain the love I lack
I try to get in shape, every night, I would stay 'wake
So you had someone to talk to and still rejection I can't escape
They asking "Holly, who are you?" I don't even have the answers
'Cause so much of me has died tryna live up to all your standards
For the last seven years, your heart has been my greatest contest
Tell me, how the hell do I exist outside your context?
I know I need more help, I'm telling myself I just need time
Ellie found her peace and I'm just steeper on my decline
All my brothers telling me that I'm too reverential
Whole time, I'm just paralyzed in our wasted potential

[Bridge 2]
(Let the tears dry, let my heart breathe)
(Let my soul rest, let my mind grieve)
Yeah
Yeah

[Chorus]
If I ever said I didn't love you, baby, I was lying
You're my only love, forever love, until the end of time
It's like 24/7, all the time you on my mind
You the only thing I see, girl, every time I close my eyes
If I ever said I didn't love you, baby, I was lying
You're my only love, forever love, until the end of time
It's like 24/7, all the time you on my mind
You the only thing I see, girl, every time I close my eyes

[Outro]
Stay with me
I want you to stay with me
Stay with me
I want you to stay with me