Am I Home Yet?

(verse 1)
You could say you love me
When my therapist calls you
But why do you treat me differently
If that was actually true
I think it's better to hideaway
So it's like I'm not here
But you don't notice
Cause you don't care

(pre-chorus)
Treat me like I'm something
You ask me what I want
I want to mean something
But that's not an option

(chorus)
You hate me but no one knows
Why do people, always care?
When I know, that I'm nothing
I've always walked a lonely road
Why do you act, like you care?
When you act, like I'm nothing
This house of mine no longer feels like home

(verse 2)
Everyone thinks that I'm wrong
And that nothing goes on
As if you actually care
But only in front of others
You scream and you'll yell
After I go through hell
Not hearing what I have to say
Instead, I'm told to go away

(pre-chorus)
Treat me like I'm something
You ask me what I want
Want to mean something
But that's not an option

(chorus)
You hate me but no one knows
Why do people, always care?
When I know, that I'm nothing
I've always walked a lonely road
Why do you act, like you care
When you act, like I'm nothing
This house of mine no longer feels like home

(bridge)
I've lost my way
Too many times
No one knows what it's like
I'm afraid of everyone
When they care, I run
I've lost my way
Too many times
No one knows what it's like
I'm afraid of everyone
When they care, I run
Too afraid I'll breakdown again

(pre-chorus)
Treat me like I'm something
You ask me what I want
Want to mean something
But that's not an option

(ending)
But I'm so used to it that it doesn't even matter to me anymore. I've always had too many things to say to people but no one hears me or no one care. they think they know how I feel but I always feel different day by day. either better and better or worse and worse. I am always confused and no one knows cause they think it's fine. this isn't even the half of it. I've always kept things inside but one day they're going to all come out at once when no one will expect it and i don't know what will happen after that. I'm scared of that day. but the thing is, I would help myself in this problem, but I've gotten so used to not being able to talk to someone about my issues that I don't know how to explain myself anymore. Have a nice day with the thoughts I gave you to think about