Am I Allowed 2B Me?

If I let go of the hold I got on myself
Left defenseless to terminate or corrupt my mental health
It don't matter about my wealth, squeaky broke or filthy rich
And the status I found all the trauma I did
Above a underground I'm bound to keep it wicked like whip
Spit flu everything I do ill than a bitch
More versatile attacking obstacles with confidence
Even if the odd fifty fifty yeah hit or miss
It'll make the crowd bounce like a bra on them tits
And the singing all the words and I ain't even got no hits
Gate keepers sleeping on compositions that are made
Mixing rhythm like batter flipping styles like they some pancakes
Mit 'em make their head nod till their neck and back ache
Got 'em going ham till they hungry for a snack break
Ayo mans got no money and he fake
He a creep and he stranger than the music that he make

Am I allowed to be me without the love or roleplay
Am I allowed to feel good, despite of what what they might say
I'm a long way from the beginning, raw from the start
Learn to rebuild myself every time I fell apart
Can I live like a rep, can I live like they do
With that strong self confidence and In ground pool
I'm a long way from the finish an far from the end
But I'm okay with who I am and I don't feel no need to pretend

How many drinks will it take, tell 'em numb and out the safe
Everything is a mistake, only losers can relate to negative mindstates
Bringing us all down, down
How do I pick back up, when you made me give a fuck
Can you show me another like where everything doesn't suck
Ya well good luck, luck, now
Everybody don't love me like I don't got no money
Amongst the pretty people who say I'm ugly
Ya well just fuck me, wow

Am I allowed to be me without the love or roleplay
Am I allowed to feel good, despite of what what they might say
I'm a long way from the beginning, raw from the start
Learn to rebuild myself every time I fell apart
Can I live like a rep, can I live like they do
With that strong self confidence and In ground pool
I'm a long way from the finish an far from the end
But I'm okay with who I am and I don't feel no need to pretend