All Alone (Pride)

I’ll impart with the knowledge- a spark in the darkness
An artist apart with a heart for catharsis
Hard fist frostbitten scarred lips
Resonate the gift- reminiscent of guitar picks
So I wander the farthest the waters uncharted
-The sun doesn’t rise like a shark in a tar pit
-So lets follow the stars right back where we started
(That’s ironic) I’ve been lost since I departed

The thrill is long gone, my soul is so cold
The quest now unfolds... composure won’t hold
I’m alone, as I lust for the trust that I know
On a dark road covered in the gust of the snow
And one touch from the wind’s like a knife to the skin
While I’m lifting the burden of my sin from within
And behold... my stone heart’s froze to the bone
Up above my dome is a full moon... no glow
A syndicate of snowflakes quick to be hitting me
...A white blizzard limiting the visibility
-Critically conditioned, I’m lingering with infirmities
Frozen land, each step feels like eternity
...And Mother nature ain’t showing me any courtesy
Below freezing- suck the life out of the Mercury
-I link up the map, take a drink from the flask
And walk the black path on the brink of collapse

-Both eyes glued to the moon, the pursuit for the truth
As I move to the tune- there ain’t much I could do
-Trapped in a froze tomb in the sadness of night
Navigate through the woods in the absence of light
With the clothes on my back, backpack of uncertainty
And certainly... (I know the cold is gonna murder me)
And am I still alive? I could picture every pace
Yet I still can’t feel both hands or my face

Am I even half way? Blood cold like a murderer
-Starting to believe my trajectory is circular
-I’ve been here before, I pray to be delivered
But I’m gullible... -the prison always whispers I’m a sinner
-Maintain to stay sane trying spark up a flame
But regardless, I remain in the same place
Nonetheless, life- freedom I’m determined to wager
So God up in heaven... listen to my prayer

--I would kill to survive, so provide me the remedy
And when I step inside- I pray their eyes still remember me
And I replied with a pride when implied was the warning
-Only now I understand the advice set before me
--They told me it was stormy, they tried their best to warn me
...I said not to worry. Thats the end of the story
-I’m sick and deformed, and I miss being warm
So stitch up my spirit, my soul is so torn
-So God, hoist up the light, fill the void in my heart
Somethings missing like a night sky devoid of the stars
I’ve lost my innocence, no more toys in the yard
It’s embossed in my skin... now poison the scars
I hate resentment... soul longs for repentance
-My body rather die before it ever gets corrected
-The future is uncertain if I end up lamented
So God up in heaven, --I’m in need of intervention

I’m so sorry and I swear to you I meant it
Every second of this penance feels like a life sentence
If I could reverse life, I would choke down my pride
-show my selfishness a quick way to the exit
I want to say sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t listen
I hardly deserve forgiveness for my hardheaded decisions
-I’d bow and beg until my own back and legs sore
I’m sorry... ‘cause I know- this has all been said before
I swear, my rebellion is unhealthy
I come on bent knees, now please will you help me!
And I chose to be deserted, now I know it wasn’t worth it
If you open up the door, I know I don’t even deserve it
I’m certain... with every impulse in my nervous
I’d manipulate my body to disciplining my worthlessness
But only if see you again...
And that’s what I would have said if my life didn’t end...

So I depart with this last, one sided correspondence
Saying the same thing, in my mind, a thesaurus
-Alone in the Heavens with a scar in my heart
As I resonate the gift with regrets in my harp
-I wandered the farthest the waters uncharted
-The sun didn’t rise, so my body fell hardest
If only you could hear me as my soul is above you...
I wish before I died, I would’ve told you that I loved you...