10.10.12

If I died tomorrow, what would you think?
What would you say as you raised that drink
To all that I'd done, all I'd achieved
How many tears would you shed when you grieved?
We're just dots on a timeline
Looking for the place that I'm gonna find mine
Yeah, I've cried for those who have passed
My only hope is that the memories are gonna last
Long enough for me to make my own impressions
But I'm not asking for the answer to those questions
That we all have in the back of our minds
The ones we spent so much time in our lives
Thinking about while we sit around and drink
And we drink enough till we start to sink
Now this might seem depressing to some
But when I feel like shit, this is just how I think
We all have to deal with these situations
That life spits in our eyes with a smile on it's face and
Says "Hey if you've got a problem
The Devil's got a method that you can use to solve them"
Drugs and alcohol, self harm and suicide
Other people wonder why some of us just wanna hide
From all of that pain, all of that suffering
While we sit here complaining that YouTube's buffering
Now I've never had a problem with narcotics
And to some of you, that might not cut it
But just because my story's not a Hollywood blockbuster
It doesn't make it any more microscopic
Everyone dies, that's a hard fact and we've all gotta live with it
But to some other people who get caught in a rut
They don't see this shit to be so simplistic
People go through things they shouldn't have to
Because some sick fuck needed his kick
You call her a whore because she might've slipped
But sometimes you've gotta fall to make lessons stick
October 10th 2012, a date that another mother's life was shattered
She tries to pick all the pieces up to help someone else who's been bruised and battered
And you abuse the power at your fingertips
And make fun of every single thing that happens
When if it was your child who hung itself
You'd be the one who was trying to find a balance
Searching for solace while sitting in silence
Till the lights flash blue and you hear those sirens
And they carry her stone cold body away
While the sun sets on that horizon
Knowing that every single day for the rest of your life will begin without that person
And to me that's a thing in this life that I find so fucking disturbing
The way that we treat each other, when we think there won't be any repercussions
When we think that nobody's watching, but to be honest that's a pretty stupid assumption
Now I've dealt with my fair share of shit in my time and I know that everybody has
And I try to live my life with no regrets but still there are things that haunt my past
Now, you ever hear this song, I'm speaking directly to you
And I'm accountable for my actions, there's no hiding from the truth
I stood there and watched, and I didn't even move a muscle
Yeah I could've yelled stop, but I just watched you struggle
Now my only excuse is that I was scared too, and when I look back now I feel sick with myself
That I didn't step up, I stood at the back, even though I knew the right thing to do
Teachers, students, everybody saw it, we all took it in but nobody stopped it
You called for help, but everybody opted out, formed a circle and started to shout
Gathered around the schoolyard like animals
Yelling at the top of their lungs craving blood like a cannibal
Somebody shouts fight, somebody else thinks it's the right thing to do
Take a second to blink, next thing you knew
You've jumped from a high school into a zoo
There's a whole pack of lions backed with a crew
It's survival of the fittest and they're coming for you
People seem to say that those years were the best that we'll ever have
That we'll never experience anything as good as our lives that are now in the past
But when you have to wake up, day after day
That's not the kinda thing you wanna hear someone say
Through the pushing, the shoving, the beating and mugging
You just wanna scream make it all go away
It's all my fault I take the blame
I don't wanna be noticed just forget my name
All I can do is kneel down and pray
That tomorrow won't be the same as today