09/14/22

Thousand words could not describe the mess
That u left
With the bottles
U puked right in my bed
And blamed the mass amount of alcohol
The apartment smells like weed
And the parfume of urs
Antidepressant pills in ur bag
I wonder how long ull last for

You use me for attention
Call me names u piece of shit
You never wondered how i felt
You never tried to get us help
You disappear into thin air
And watch them change
Ur heart its synced to my words
Honеy why are u so brave?

Touch me
Hurt mе
Use me as ur therapy
Tell me
How much u hate me
Just to end up saying that u love me
Feed me
With ur kiss
Hold ur hands onto my sweet lips
(and let me cry)

U blow ur birthday candles
And think of ur last wish
U hold the camera up
Take photos of ur dish
U let the guests all in
U looked him in the eyes
U held onto his hand
Said take the kitchen knife

Oh stay here with me
Oh hold onto me
You call me insane
Ill give u insane
Ill write ur name with fresh blood
On my walls
Ill draw u in my diary
Ill copy all ur talks

Maybe i dont have the guts to spell it all out
Maybe i dont want to hurt the feelings of the ones that i love
I shave my body, my face, my hair, my arms & my legs
Cut some symbols up on my wrist
For satisfaction of others, not myself
I just wish life wouldn't be unfair

We carved our name into the trees
Ran after sunsets, holding hands
And kissed, how unfair
That u left when i said how i felt
Im not the one u think i am

I slit your name into my wrists
The tattoo artist thinks im sick and calls my mother
She said it would be better if i left her
So i blame the things on life, cus its unfair

I know how u felt
I saw it in my dreams
I can't comprehend the fact
That i need u at night to sleep
Oh i know its unfair
I know that i am wrong
I learned from my mistakes
And hope one day ill move on
Move on
Why can't i just move on?
I miss your gorgeous face, i miss the time we
Spent together, miss hearing ur voice and
Miss all of the nights we said "i love you"
I guess that one day things change
But i won't let go