07/02/2024

Pull me in again
Over and over time i lose my head
To you and your pleasures as i
Come to need, depend
On words sent from miles away
I can't lie, it feels good to bend your will

And now it's over
And i feel unclean
But it feels

Good to need it
Good to try it
It makes me want more, i can't deny it
Immature, you take advantage
God, i wish i'd seen the damage
Oh, expose the nerves, undress the skin
And dress me up the way you want it
Tell me this is good, and tell me that
I wanted it
I wanted

It to stop the dread
That plagues me every night
I try to rest my little head
But i want you to use
Like a toy, and discard it
Use it and abuse it
And i can't stop, addicted
A child, addicted to you

I don't want it anymore
But it feels

Good to need it
Good to try it
It makes me want more, i can't deny it
Immature, you take advantage
God, i wish i'd seen the damage
Oh, expose the nerves, undress the skin
And dress me up the way you want it
Tell me this is good, and tell me that
I wanted it
I wanted it

As i sit in the corner of my room
A bottle of pills become my tomb
A studio turned into a private hell
And as i open the bottle
I wish you all well

Go back to bed, go back to sleep
Another night, another day
Gone
What have you done?
Wasted time, wasted breath
A wasted life and a wasted death
Keep it up, keep it in
Keeping going until it's gone
Fall out onto the floor
As i fade into the darkness
I apologize to everyone who's known me
As i fall away
All i have left to say is
"i'm sorry"