Tell you once

"Hey its Sarah leave a message"

"Oh hey... yo its Roman... uh
I know its like 4am... But that's whatever
Besides the point
Are you free later, im tryna meet up maybe do something"

Let me tell you once
Imma tell you once
I don't need you
But I say I do
When I say I love everything about you
That's debatable
I'll probably tell you anything you want
So you can stay
But most the times I'm next to you
I don't know what to say-

In my mind, I conjure up how your worth chasing
If she chose between me and her fun I wouldn't make it
I'd never fall in love again
That's something that Id say
But then she moan my name in sheets
So really how can I complain
It'll probably never change
I can't erase
The way she wash my brain
I sit inside my shower every day
And pretend that its rain
And when she not around
I cannot sleep
Most nights I lie awake
I close my eyes and think of everything
Except for what to change
That girl my remedy
They scream
You sick
Na just a lil love struck
Got a heart so I should use it
Keeping up the pace
With space and time
So let's get to it
Says she only left cause she staying on my best side
So I guess that I'm wrong for writing bout her in my music

"Uhh Roman?"

"Oh, uh hi Sarah my bad for calling you this late
I didn't... I didn't think you'd be up"

"No it's fine I'm glad you called
So you wanna tell me the rest of what you were gonna say?"

You be on my mind like on the daily
At a drop, I'm changing topics
Like I need you
Now it's raining
You the hottest
Not a problem
Least the one I never thought about
You running to my arms
I never thought about it
I've been on my own for way too long
There ain't no doubt about it
Tuff, I never thought I could find love
And then move on without it
But I want that bitch so much
Got a hundred thoughts a day that's a bit too much
Stay up on the phone
Like you dumb
Like you hang up first

"No you hang up first"
"No you hang up first"

Out of place
Out of trust
Out of pay attention
Shit I made mistakes
In the past
OD interventions
Make you want to change
Now I'm older
Not that so and so
Got closure
Now these open doors
Need order
When I'm sober
I feel naked
Higher than a spaceship

Superpowered nova
When I see you
Imma show you how I'm feeling
Even if you gonna pull it to the side
You never see em
No, I'm never really feeling how I like
No never mind
I guess I'm switching up the topics in my brain
I hope you know keep sane you walk right in
And keep the monsters out
She playing with them feelings
I can't tell her that she not allowed
I'm screaming just like not aloud
But probably when she not around
I'm thinking to myself about
The little things we walk around

I met her in a pinch
And now this shit feeling like a hundred thousand hits
She smacks me round and just don't know where I am
It makes me sick
How I can never stand
Because my arms and legs stay stuck up in her hands
And my friends won't understand

Or ever understand me
Blind to my own cycles
While I fantasize our family
Ramon and Sarah chilling on the couch
Then you walk past me
And I can feel the sunshine in your step that keep me anxty
And every-time you next to me still feel like I still can't breath
Like stampedes
I can't leave
You stand me
Get handsy
No plan bs

That girl let me see all that I can be
Make me feel all of the greatest things
I thought I can't be

"So yeah that's how I feel, I hope it wasn't to straightforward"
"I think I got the gist of it"
"Oh yeah"
"You busy right now?"
"Na I'm not actually doing anything"
"Get over here"