big stupid and useless

Lyrics from Snippet 1 & Snippet 2

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Starring down the barrel of my camera roll
I think I've gotten pretty old
Looking at the messages that I would send
I can't believe I spoke like that

Reflect, reflect anyone
Be a mirror to everyone

I wanna feel big again
I wanna feel small, stupid and useless
I used to feel big a lot
Think I forgot, big stupid and useless

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Thinking about sleeping in my parents bed
The monsters all got out again
Running from the bullets of my brother's gun
It's paintball but it stings like a real one

Tripping through the bushes and I skin my knees
I kinda like it when it bleeds cause
Mom's gonna take me in and patch me up
And cook all of my favorite stuff

Reflect, reflect all the time
Be a mirror of what's behind you

I wanna feel big again
I wanna feel small, stupid and useless
I used to feel big a lot
Think I forgot, big stupid and useless

Oh it's not [?]

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