Laurel Leaf (Anhedonia)

[Intro]
So
We were sleeping and then I heard a sound in the living room
And Daddy came to go check
And then [? 0:10] it's a body
And, and, I don't know [?], like
The body had, like, a speaker in its hand
And, and then [?] goes, dun-dun-dun-da

[Verse 1]
All the things I told myself and I heard nothing
Every lie I sold myself 'til I quit buying
Found the inner activist and killed her quiet
Buried under processing, but she's been climbing

[Refrain]
Up in my tree, I have all I could really need
And the fork in my tongue troubles no one
Shame and relief to be finally, truly seen
As I am, as I'll be, as I'vе been

[Verse 2]
All the nights I cut myself and I felt nothing
Murdеr every messenger, but they keep coming
Cultivate your loneliness 'til you're a loner
Cradle your anxiety and anhedonia

[Refrain]
Down at the end of your day in the mess you've made
And the bones of your bed, she's a shipwreck
What's in a name or a face or a garden grave?
Stomach-sick at the turn of the trick

[Instrumental Break]

[Bridge]
Left waiting on the airlift out
Stuck straining for the punchline now

[Refrain]
Worry away your pretensions of guile and grace
What's the last thing you said?: "God's a basehead
Spinning in place, never fazed by the risks he takes"
Then you fell through the floor on a low, so pure
When you spread at the surf, did your teeth hurt?
Almost awake, I await a redemption day
Laurel leaf, you'll be all I can see

[Outro]
All the signs I showed myself and I saw nothing
All the signs I showed myself and I saw nothing