I’ll Admit

I’ll admit
I never thought I’d tell my life through rapping
If I’m honest, it just kinda happen
My momma taught me practice
My pen ain’t touched by many like sick patients
But I wish I had more patience before snappin’ …hmm

I’ll admit
I’m the strong friend that you should check on
The one stretching out his neck for out for others dead long
Life done toughened out my skin to Teflon
But that don’t make me just some welcome mat that you can step on

I’ll admit
I really fucking hate people
…sometimes
Then I remember I’m a person, the flawed kind
But show me how to love those who don’t forgive
Chiefly when I need it, empty-handed on the receiving end

I’ll admit
Don’t need your validation, I need affirmation
Can you relate through my expression via placid statements?
Will you ever try to verbalize your understanding?
That’ll keep me off my crazy island dry & stranded

I’ll admit
Anxiety kicks in when I’m overwhelmed
Consistently, doing for others hardly myself
I'm filled partly with wealth
And still wrapped in my shell
God, this pyramid scheme ain’t helping nobody else

I’ll admit
I’m a glutton for punishment cause I’m numb to it
Piling work on the pain, success patching my bruises
Eating uppercuts from life cause I stomach the losing
Healing in between the rounds
Square up or pivot so

I’ll admit
I ain’t moving for nothing
I need a feeling for something
Rushing will cripple the cunning
Keep on dumbing a down a new found path of me, bleeding
Facing my demons, release this weight that I’m heaving
This jaded past that I’m keeping

I’ll admit, I’m afraid losing friends over stupid shit
I’ll admit, I get angry when I call out stupid shit
I’ll admit, I need help
I’ll admit, I ain’t perfect
I’ll admit, just me sharing all this is making me nervous
I’ll admit