Moment Of Clarity

It's funny how lunatic I can be
Going on extremes as fast as it can be
And as soon as I'm in my shelter, I'm feelin warm safely
Face to face with my head, killing me softly
I'm eaten by the doubt, my armour is crackin
Fallen from my cloud, low-key, down egotrippin
It's time to not pretend and show my real face
The man behind the mask, the kid fearin himself
I'm loosin confidence, diggin my nails till my blood gets spilled
Hurtin my flesh, in this emptiness, maybe the end is near
Cause I might as well be lyin to myself, lyin to my fam'
Well in this cocoon while I'm just waitin for my time to pass
And the nails keep being dug untill I finally realize
I'm not able to take my chances cause this suit is too upsized
I'm wonderin what will be the next step, where are my new plans
But still to this day, tommorow seems a bit strange

Pal I admire you, look up to you, though sometimes I'm wonderin if
It would've been the same if it wasn't for her that you jumped off the cliff
You left it all behind, paused 20 years of your life
Run away from us to someone who let you down
I know it's been rough on the edge though you too closed to close talkin
Hope in the end that you find your new silverlinin
You're a strong one pal, I hope you realize
That one day, we'll make this promise toast closer to the sky
It's me, myself and I cause my aim is going high
But if you leave me all alone, this all would be a fuckin' lie
This song is another dark song and I hate myself for that
Anotha cryin about it all, maybe I'm just a copycat
Copy copy cat, lookin like a kitty cat
My complaint is complainin bout the things that I don't have
But maybe it's not get that complacent taht I bully myself
Till the moment of clarity finally shows itself

I lived years strugglin, fightin for daddy pride
More than ever alone, sometimes divin inside
And I'm wavin hands but he wouldn't see me
Im screamin out loud but he would't even hear me
Can't remember waves but still can feel my pain
Made me mad angry till I wanna dig his grave
Fuck that, Im moving steps to steps
Im climbing the scale, till I see no more stairs
And fit in my shoes? when nobody can't
I'm just livin good, waitin for the first grand
Im getting strong, sometimes like a rock
But I can't help myself watchin that tickin clock
I've seen friends turnin enemies, good girls turnin bitches
They say tables turn, maybe this's my time to get the cheese
Fucking weird how they look at life, nigga straighten up
Time to switch it up, stop lookin down and chin it up
I hate when it all comes to the point
That moment When we all have to fall apart
I guess I should focus more on some people than other one
When you text me just to tell me you're alive, that's when I know
But I ain't mad, I guess I'm not on your top 5
Gotta choose the real, separate from the fakes, fine
Mind full of noise, 7pm at the airport
Just wanna rest in peace, fly away from these dark thoughts