Atonement

This is filth, but this is reality so I don’t mind
Skipping time, ‘cause this is reality so I don’t mind
Hello, this is who I am
This is everything I have
The clothes and the keys in my hand
And I try to better my own life
By just being nice
Like buying a homeless men lord of the flies
Because I don’t have a way with words
But I can play until my fingers hurt
And I can love you ‘til my fingers hurt
And I won’t stop until I’m in the dirt
'Cause sometimes I want you
But darling, sometimes I want your friends, too
But I ain’t going to change
And I’ll be happy one of these days

Cause I don’t know who I am
And I don’t know who I’ve met
All I know is I come and I go
Because I’m a space cadet

But "It's funner on the dark side, Georgia," is what I once was told
So when I was just thirteen years old
I slept in an escape hole
And I slept with people I shouldn’t have done
Claiming it was just a bit of fun
But all I ever needed was love
And I really should’ve listened to my mum
And I’ve loved the people I shouldn’t have
And I’ve done things that I’ve known were bad
And all my fucking rhymes are bad
And my only good song is about my dad
But I promise you that I’m going to change
And get rid of all my old ways
And one day I’ll love me for me
Cause one day I’ll be all I need

Cause I don’t know who I am
And I don’t know who I’ve met
All I know is I come and I go
Because I’m a space cadet

And I’m still trying to find myself
By finding the cheapest wine on the shelf
And drinking until I find myself crying on the phone to Sam
Cause sometimes I get drunk
And pass out in the toilets and
Sometimes I throw up
And I call my ex boyfriend and
Sometimes I want to hit that bitch with a brick in the face
But then I remember that her mum’s a lawyer so I don’t
And I fucked up in the past but I’m not perfect
and I’m never going to be anyone but me
That’s such a harsh reality

Cause I don’t know who I am
And I don’t know who I’ve met
All I know is I come and I go
Because I’m a space cadet
And my name’s Georgia Maq
And I have got to learn to be comfortable with that
Cause I am all I have
Cause I am Georgia Maq
And I have to learn to be comfortable with that
Cause I am all I have