Broken Attachment

All these broken attachments like an expired link
Constantly bitches be fucking and forming bonds with me
When shit ends hostilely love turns to animosity
I regret choosing quantity over quality
Ripped apart by our addictions
I turned to other bitches
She turned to drugs and drinking
And sure I love my new girl
But I can't help thinking
Maybe I form these bonds for other reasons
Maybe it has less to do with her and more to do with me
Like why when I'm alone do I feel incomplete?
Still with my main ex there's some legitimacy
If for nothing else then how long she been with me
It's been six years we been on and off
So it's hard to process the loss
And I hear these niggas scoff when I say it's been 8 months
But I'm soft so I can't handle being tossed
Six years, man, that's like family
Together since sixteen 'til she abandoned me
And I can't see her
I could move forward and pretend nothing just happened to me
Cause now I have a disease
But still I rebound so easily
We break up and get back together almost seasonally
All I want is her to be with me and stop being mean to me
Stop ducking me and start cucking me
Admit that she's in love with me and stop tryna fuck with me
Girl, my whole fuckin life has been about you
2012, I turned to China, I'm a Lao Tzu
Last year I got sober hoping to get back with you
And since that didn't work out it fucked with my attitude
I unblocked your number didn't get a call all summer
Texted you and said I'm still in love with you
Then cried while I was fuckin another girl
Because she wasn't you
I didn't just wanna watch you fuck other dudes
And I'm sorry that I keep calling you, I'm a bugaboo
And I know we've grown apart so much
But you're still my little sister
And I still miss your touch, still miss your butt
Still think of us in my dreams
Cried this morning when I woke up
Cause I had a dream you and I passed a fennec fox
And I grabbed it cause I remembered how you wanted one

I remember how we planned to live together
Cause we thought the shit would last forever
You wanted a kitten and I got one on my birthday
But that month we broke up and my mom gave the cat away
In the end you didn't make me happy, and things ended badly
But I'd take you back gladly, and get married
I don't care that you're mad at me
We're still family, none of that other shit matters to me
So pick up your fucking phone, bitch