Spit on my grave

[Verse 1]
Clasp the windows to my soul
The smoke thicken as I drown inside my lows
And my hands still shaking from the feelings that ain’t gone
These pills can only numb me so much until it falls
I, reached out for a word, but you offered me a blessing
Said my head is full of ghosts who will forever hold the leverage
On my soul and aching body, crumblin to this depression
Said I’ll die inside this bedroom, if I let you in my head
And, I can feel it when you lying, don’t repeat that shit you said
I can tell your tells right from a text
And if you ever gave a fuck then I never would’vе left, yeah

[Verse 2]
And I’m not sure what I’m saying but I’m talking
Staring at thеse walls until they crumble and they cave in
Bones breaking snapping while I’m lying on the pavement
I died in Montreal I felt my mind fade to nothing
My physical remains, but my soul is succumbing
Leave it to my brother in the sky, he can see it
Kamyar watching over me he knows that I need em
I woulda never made it, in September I was bleeding

[Verse 3]
You know I been alone since I was 12, so the feeling is indifferent
Fighting for my spirit in this world and you can see it
Mama tryna it make out the hood fore she see heaven
I would do bout anything to toss her ass a blessing
I’m trapping in Chicago all the gunshots deafen
Youd think with all this drama I been living with a deathwish
I’m tryna meet my end so you could say you fuckin guessed it

[Verse 4]
And I could never show you anything if you could never get it
I show you what I think you’d understand or you can phathom
Listen to this, when I’m gone and maybe you can hear the gasping
Crying out for help inside my head, but I can’t have it
I just know that everything I need is in my jacket
Pull the gun out from my pocket, you can hear the moon talking
And all the words you never said, you can tell me in my casket
Until it’s nothing