Repetitive

[Verse 1]
I don’t how to start this, I don’t what to say
The future has made become so afraid
At the same time I feel so blind and lost
Burning from the heat, freezing from the frost
My life is in ruin I’ve lost all my willpower
I can only watch my dreams from a high tower
Same things different day every day
Yeah no change everything is the same
Talk the talk, I say rep the Lord
But I do this selfishly now my life is torn
Predictable circuit has gotten me bored
I just want a life worth dying for
Soar high, I want the wings of an eagle
Swallowed in the city dwelling with other people
Going crazy inside this tiny box
But I can’t find the key to be unlocked
My elders always tell me to study hard
So that I could be successful and have a good life
Get a good wife and have a couple kids
Get the bank flow along with a nice crib
You telling me to live ordinary?
No way that I'mma live that kind of daily
All this workload is intruding my ambition
Got my own business, man what is this?
Rookie in the game, child on the road
Haven’t even retired yet I feel so old
Oblivion descends, it falls on the pathway
Confidence is gone, I begin to sway
And it’s only troubled times that I pray
Otherwise it’s just during meals everyday
If that’s the case that why am I living?
Just getting by while constantly sinning
Not growing in any way, stuck in a phase
Don’t even look at my life it’s all full of shame
Not a music passion but a duty
You say that I’m lucky but you haven’t seen the ugly
The good life, well I ain’t living that
Stuck underground sleeping with rats
Stuck in my animus cave filled with bats
Always so stressed, tired, annoyed, and mad
Like what’s up with that? Is that it?
Is that all there is that life has to give?
My journey has yet to even begin
Yet I’m complaining about the mess I’m in
Uh, time is moving on without me
I’m still in a hard place making myself bleed
This ain’t even close to a first world problem
All these things in life I have yet to fathom
Still in the past preparing for the future
But what’s the future if I don’t live the present
My mind and body don’t seem to get the message
I’m being so reckless my brain is being senseless

[Verse 2]
Cars driving by, people walking by
Rain pouring down, hard decisions to decide
Lyrics that I don’t spend enough time with
Recording and producing I don’t deal with
Then what’s this rapping career for?
Just slowly building my house on a shore
I wanna speak light and more relevance
Need more healing and more medicine
If this is my purpose I hope it works
If not I might as well have my life merked
Meaningless stroll, life feels so dull
But these winters in my mind are so cold
Yeah screw my plan yeah scrap it
People look at me and ask me what happened
It’s now or never, can’t wait for fate
Or else I might be one day too late
Dreams shatters, my vision shatters
But God has given me something better
I hope that I will be content and fulfilled
I pray that God will have me live

[Outro]
Is that all you think life really is?
Man, guess I’m asking myself the same question