You Should’vee Called

[Verse 1]
I don't want help
I have no intention of saving myself
I just keep itching to take what I've felt
Start the suspension to heaven or hell
Seeing them listen, my words always fell
On to deaf ears, they don't know, I can tell
Their only fear when the blood start to smear
And how many of tears thats gonna put on they self
Selfish
But I really don't know that I'm anyone better
She told me let her help
My shoulder stay colder than wind in December
Push 'em away
I already know that its hard just to cope with the pain
Leave no one to blame
Breaking your trust, now we're never the same

[Verse 2]
I'm done with the thinking, forget what you said
My hand started shaking while grabbing the edge
I know I can take it, I been too complacent
Been carving and shaving 'til I'm out of breath
You knew I was next
And all of us knew that we had to be right
It could've been you with nobody to find
But now its just you with a body to find
The scars and the blood make me hard to define
Liquor in the cut, it don't cause me to whine
I watch it drip as it numbs the inside
Lock up the door, I'll stay out of your sight
I've always been sure but tonight is the night
I've always been torn but the thoughts I ignore
Are all starting to pour from the tip of the knife
They wondering why, calling they friends
They beating the door begging to get in
All of my life I have known how I'm going
I swear that I told them that this is the end
I would say sorry and swear that I mean it
When you started reading you'd probably believe it
'Cause although its true that I'd never want to
Man, I always had knew I'd be killing you too

[Verse 3]
Blade on my skin
Colder than winter, let none of 'em in
Found my way out, don't know where I begin
Keep pushing it in 'till I'm at my end, yeah
I don't wanna die like this
If theres something that I know
This is the end, when you find me again
Man, I swear this how I go
I've known since a kid, middle school days
When we met I would go home and dance with the blade
And if anyone say that it needed to change
I would add some more on my arm and a page
I was having some dreams where I'm ending it all
But my family in need, so I'd slow to a crawl
The more I grow older, the more that I stall
And the more that it hurts knowing I'm gonna fall