You Dissolve

Watching you like this
Tears me apart
You regress your feelings
The guilt is all mine
I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing
Torn in two as you
Regress this frustration
This walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak
This urge never overcame me so strong
Like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears
In dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry
What happened to the promises?
Your lies and hatred
You shut me out
Became what you despised magnified
I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up
You're not waking up this time
Set yourself up for self-destruction again
You're not waking up