Yellow

Abandoned our house
Nail the wood down
Blood runs through the walls
Dripping down
Dripping down

This time we didn’t look back
And now I get that
Today I’m making out to be a fraud
I care but
I don’t care at all

Would you be proud
Could you look at me now
All the bloods draining out
Draining out
Draining out

Trying to make good changes
You know, I hate this
Had my reasons for leaving every last mirror behind

Oh what I went through
To be good
To be good for you

Offered my all
Gave you my all
Til I was running
On nothing
Now I got nothing

Nothing hurts worse than I thought it would
I catch myself mid turn some of the time
“I’ll be enough”
Those were your words not mine

“I’ll be enough”
Those were your words not mine
“I’ll be enough”
Those were your words not mine

(Julia Mentlik)
I won't know
Whether those lights are northern
Or southern
Or just an illusion
Cause I'll be lucid

Cruising down the highway loosely
Based off every map I've ever seen
And your loose lips will get us lost
But if there was anyone i’d wanna be lost with
It'd be you

Cause darling I believe in chakras
And mock me all you want
But I don't talk simply to fill the silence
So I mean it when I say that yellow I saw
All around you

Made me really think
I was back staring at those lights
Or maybe even the sunrise
I slept through leaking into my eyelids
And instead of black I saw the most beautiful
Blood vessel break of day like rays through
The curtains in your bedroom
And I have never felt more solace than that

And this life will be worth every callous
Every blister
Every splinter
Every skid mark
And tire burn I get
And hey it'll hurt like hell
But along way I'll get the best fucking tan I've ever gotten
And my hands will be as sweaty as ever
But at least you'll hold them anyways