Years of Spleen

I am fucking done with this
Not long untill i fucking cut my wrist
All is fucked I cannot live like this
I dont think there will be a single thing i would miss

Been too many years where ive been feeling like shit
Been Thinking way to long feel like my brain gon split
Solitary is the only thing that i need
You can shut the fuck up before your eyes fucking bleed

Strive for a better life but i keep fucking up
Im doing my best but its never enough
Self hatred is not something that i want to discuss
Everything has gone to hell but im not giving up

I dont want to live like this
Keep fucking up i feel like shit
Anxiety has hurt enough
But im not fucking giving up

The answer is right in front of me but i can't reach it
I am lost within no other feeling but pain
Im sinking someone pull me out of the rain