XX!

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me

You ran away, where you are now? I wouldn't know
Why do you play all of these games? Answer the phone
Fuck it I'll shift, I'm not the same, leave me alone
Don't come back when you see my name, I'ma be gone

20 years old, I've wished I was dead 20 times
Remember I turned 18, almost like took my life
I missed all of my friends, thinking about what I did
Never could come up with nothing, really made me feel like shit

19, wanted her to find me
Last year, it still ain't behind me
17, I don't even know
I deleted memories, I don't know how to cope

2018 I met this girl, swear she saved me
2019, I didn't know that she'd hate me
Before I let go I wanna make her bitter
Feel like tracy, toss that bitch I littered

I say whatever I want, really I think that I lost my mind
After I made "I lost her" I made her something that I'll never find
Death all in my head by 25 won't be alive
It'll be a miracle by then I haven't died

Fuck, did it again, cut off a tie, I burned a bridge
I'm slippin' again, I'm on the edge, might lose my shit
1, 2, 3, many reasons I'd kill me
How did I get so bad? I don't think you can fix me

I know that I'm a mess
So cold, ice in my chest
Time goes I just feel less
Getting close to my last breath

20 years old, already died
I'm getting cold, put me on ice
Gave you my love, you gave me lies
Already did, so then why should I try?

Don't tell me you love me
If you really did wouldn't crush me
Give me time, don't rush me
I wish you would trust me