XVIII.

[Verse]
Time is passing and it seems that my depression is the only thing progressing, guess I haven't learned my lesson
I just turned 18 and I can't help but fucking think my life is gonna flop harder than me when I hit the water
Don't bother tryna be my fucking friend, it'll end
Happiness is always fucking borderline pretend
'Cause I just see the bad in everything, I'll never make amends
I wake up and hate life then go to sleep and wake again
Fuck this, what kind of fucking girl would wanna cuff this?
Tough shit, I'll guess I'll find happiness in nothing
You tell me "I love you," and I feel like that you're bluffing
Feel like I've tried everything just to feel something but nothing works and everything hurts
You had all of this potential, I should've been dead first
If we could trade spots, I'd jump straight into the dirt
You were worth way more and I know that shit for sure
Breaking down more frequent, life is just a sequence of events of shit we don't vent because of secrets
I'm tired of keeping it, so this is mine
I'm afraid I'll die with the regret of wasting time
I'm afraid I'll die alone and never be remembered
I'm afraid if Hell is real, I'll be used as tinder
But if not I'll just rot fucking 6 feet deep, I wish I was dead and I'm only 18

[Outro]
I couldn't be happy if you made me, you could never stay around me long enough to save me
Nothing that you do could ever phase me, I expect the worse in everything, so you can't break me, I been slippin' back into habits
How could I show love to you when I don't even have it?
Still in pain, I'm just better when I mask it
Tired of my bed, I'll feel better in a casket