XIX.

I used to be stuck
I used to live in my mind
Burnin' from the pain inside
I used to wish I would die
Did not wanna try to keep on being alive
I used to think I was better off dead
Kept on believing the lies in my head
Now I’m glad that skin I've shed
You ain't help me, you don’t get cred

Now they wanna ask where I'm at
When I was lost they ain't ask bout that
No love here, my heart's turned black
I was in defense, now I'm all attack
So if you want just let me go
I don't need to need to fuckin' know
Anything that you think 'bout me
It be too hard to let that shit go

19, in a nice scene, on the road to making my life dream
Not just a dream but everything I truly want and truly need
Fuck that workin’ a job that doesnt do shit but fight the cause
That type of shit ain’t worth the fall
I rather fall tryna' get it all

Last year I was found by an angel
Glad I didn’t keep 'em a stranger
Glad that I let 'em inside
They helped me channel all of my anger
Help me escape from the danger
That I made myself
You were the crack in my shell
Made me feel what I never felt

I'm not lost but I been losing my way
Lately I been livin’ life sideways
I don't wanna live unless it's my way
I only can listen to what I say
I used to think I didn't need you
But there's no other girl that can be you
You're the only one that isn't see through
Swear I wouldn't mind livin' life with just me & you