Worth It

[Verse 1]
Please, excuse me
If lately I've been distant
These pessimistic thoughts
Just keep on fucking up my vision
I try to block em out but paranoia starts to kick in
Feel so alone can't trust a soul that be living
Not even myself
My inner demon screaming he can help
Knowing that I'm weak and ain't giving a fuck about my health
So what am I to do?
Regroup and try to save my fate?
Or go back down a road I'm knowing that I can't escape?
It's fucked up
Wanna get the fuck up out this place
This depression, neglecting, every blessing in my face
I feel stuck up
And I don't really want to talk about it
Rather isolate myself and let the hate just build around it like

[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel this way
I don't wanna be ashamed
Of everything that I've done in the past
And every mistake that I've ever made
So what am I suppose to do?
Living life without a clue
Watch the hands of time pass by
My reflection haunts everything I do

[Verse 2]
As the smoke fills my lungs
The pain leaves my chest
I can't feel I'm numb
Still I run far away from reality
Shove away all my problems
And everything that's challenging
Why must I feed off anything that's negative?
When I'm laying down in my bed my head is replaying shit
Ain't no replacing the resentment that I hang with it
Just keep on stacking up until the pain is all that stays in
Yeah, when I look inside the fucking mirror
I see the monster I've created and my stomach fills with fear
Don't wanna sound like I'm just bitching but this shit is all sincere
So I'm hanging up the noose making sure the end is near now

[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel this way
I don't wanna be ashamed
Of everything that I've done in the past
And every mistake that I've ever made
So what am I suppose to do?
Living life without a clue
Watch the hands of time pass by
My reflection haunts everything I do

[Bridge]
So sick of running in circles
Can't ever make it ahead
Some days I wake up say fuck it
I'd rather lay in my bed
Sadistic visions repeat themselves in just play in my head
Same shit different day, always playing defense
I feel the pressure I guess I never learn my lesson
Always second guessing every decision that I am pressed with
Man, fuck this house, fuck this job, just desert it
Cause the voice inside my head keep telling me that I ain't worth shit

[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel this way
I don't wanna be ashamed
Of everything that I've done in the past
And every mistake that I've ever made
So what am I suppose to do?
Living life without a clue
Watch the hands of time pass by
My reflection haunts everything I do