Worst State

[Chorus]
Right now I'm in the worst state
Skip the gym with a hurt mind and a worse shape
Still hit me for the twenty five on the first day
Still gotta do a nine to five after my work day

[Verse]
Still putting in the days work after my nine to five
When I think of Joe, it's really hard not to cry sometimes
Two sets of memories converging in my mind sometimes
Bari, Brea, I just wanna see you one more proper time
Shit is getting outta line, wish we wasn't outta time
Wish someone would come and give me strеngth when I run outta mine
Wish that you could tell us whеn this time could be our final time
I still dip my pen inside my heart before I write a line
I wish God sent me the script, skip to the next scene
Before I can recover, I get hit by the next thing
Another lost brother, we didn't put him to rest
But I hope some time apart from each other can be the best thing
It's getting hard to get ahold of me now
A lot of pressure on my back, feel like it's holding me down
It's like I'm trapped inside a box without a hole to breathe out
They try to bury you, but got you standing over me now, so
Just make sure heaven got a space for me
Know you with your mom, so make sure peaches get a hey from me
All I really ask is you watch over me when danger creeps
'Cause the shit them niggas did to you could be the same for me
Wrong place, wrong time
Your fate or mine
More days go by
More pain, more crying
Speaking to me got me weak in the knees
That's why even when I'm sober, I still reek from the trees
That's why even when I'm tired, it's not easy to sleep
Even picking up this pen, it isn't easy to me
You can't see the tears roll down, so I just weep through the beat
But in the end, it only feels like it was me versus me
Wish you came to my show, bro, my set list was crazy
I know you came to my show, bro, my set list was crazy
I know you always on my side, and I step with it daily
Even when it's people in this world that's desperate to take me
Niggas ask if I'm OK, but you already know the answer
I just tell 'em that I'm fine, or I just shrug and throw my hands up
When this shit is on my mind, I still find time to go and banter
'Cause this shit ain't black and white, it's all combined, just like a panda (OK)
Some days I feel perfectly swell
Some days I feel like shit, I think my mind my personal hell (it might just be)
And I try to keep these words to myself
Don't wake up in my second form, my days are Perfect as Cell
See, my shorty hold me down, she said she don't know what to say
I know this shit not your forte, I only needed you to stay
Sometimes I need to talk, but, look, sometimes I need your space
Just being wrapped inside your arms can make me feel like it's OK
I know it's getting rougher for 'em, crush, we finna make it through
Man, I love the Loop like I love Wayne, they like my favorite dudes
I let my demons talk and turn that shit into my favorite tunes
Gotta thank God that I was made into the shape of you 'cause

[Chorus]
Right now I'm in the worst state
Skip the gym with a hurt mind and a worse shape
Still hit me for the twenty five on the first day
Still gotta do a nine to five after my work day