​wondering how

[Verse 1]
Apple cores, unholy chores
I have to raise my voice to speak
My thoughts got bad, I dropped the bag
With eggshells cracked
I know I lack all that you need
I cannot breathe, my lungs are filled with smoke from trees
So you tell me I need to leave, and I did
And now I'm wondering how

[Chorus]
How I even got this far
Got sympathy for all your scars
I'm running circles, bowing down
But I'm still fucking wondering how

[Verse 2]
Broken bones and heart-shaped stones
They block my road the way to home
The hedges trimmed, the blades just skimmed
Above my head, I lay in bed
The ceiling stares into my soul
I didn't wanna have to go
You forced my hand and we've found land
But now I'm scared and still wondering how

[Chorus]
How I even got this far
Got sympathy for all your scars
I'm running circles, bowing down
But I'm still fucking wondering how

[Bridge]
And I'm still fucking wondering how
And I'm still fucking wondering how

[Chorus]
How I even got this far
Got sympathy for all your scars
I'm running circles, bowing down
But I'm still fucking wondering how

[Post-Chorus]
The snow will stick upon the ground
The sky got dark from all the clouds
It's getting cold, I say out loud
That I'm still fucking wondering how