​wonder why?

[Verse]
You said you want me, but I know you shy
And I been through so damn much in my mind
And I carry all the time, I break my spine
If you look at me, I look at you, I'm fine
If you want to ask, don't talk to me, I'm fine
And you know it's a obvious lie, you can see it in my eyes
I'm trying to die, but I'm stuck up on this earth
I wonder why, I don't ever have the right thoughts, but I try
Do you even know what it's like to see in me?
Do you even know what it's like to see in me?
I can hardly, barely breathe, I don't get no company
I don't know what you want from me
You said you want me, but I know you shy
And I been through so damn much in my mind
And I carry all the time, I break my spine
If you look at me, I look at you, I'm fine
If you want to ask, don't talk to me, I'm fine
And you know it's a obvious lie, you can see it in my eyes
I'm trying to die, but I'm stuck up on this earth
I wonder why, I don't ever have the right thoughts, but I try

[Outro]
You said you want me, but I know you shy
And I been through so damn much in my mind
And I carry all the time, I break my spine
If you look at me, I look at you, I'm fine
If you want to ask, don't talk to me, I'm fine
And you know it's a obvious lie