With the Tide

7 PM, I got the call
And it didn’t make sense to me
You’d always been so strong, so vibrant
You were always on your feet
They told me you might never walk again
I caught the first train
I wanted us to talk again
And when I saw you, my first thought
Was that I’d never seen you quite
So small, so quiet

I didn’t know what to say
I wonder, did I say enough?
Or was it vain for me to feel the need?
I said “I love you”
“Thanks for everything”
And you said “I’ll see you again”
But you did not
But you did not

I left the ocean and the trees
For these sleepless city streets
There was a world between us
Couldn’t bridge that gap in my mind
And I just dream my life away
My hours slipping into days
I lay here half-asleep
As you drifted out with the tidе

7-10-18, I got the call
It still didn’t make sensе to me
I was the only one
Who wasn’t in the room with you
Couldn’t make the funeral
I thought I’d done my grieving
Now it’s been another year
And I’m finally coming back
And I’m still waiting for the tears to come
I’m still praying to feel the lack

I was your first, your eldest
Was the first you held
I am the furthest away
I forsook the sea and the trees
For the noise of these streets
And I dream my days away
Walk half-asleep my life away
And our time just slipped away
I didn’t understand how quickly
And oh my God, I am so sorry

I raised up my palms to the sky
Embracing the sun and the wind
Somehow, I knew you were out there
And I knew you were smiling again