Wishing for July

Wishing for July: Louie G

I wish these drugs could erase me, i wish I hadn't given up so soon, i wish my mind didn’t chase me, i wish I’d never given up on you

Cause’ you know I’m feeling pain, and I see you feel it too, and I smile when I’m in public cause’ it’s all that i can do, and that shit hurts
I don’t understand, why my minds caught in the past, i start to feel like I’m doing good and suddenly I’m attached
And all that gets attached, eventually rips away, they don’t leave scars on my skin but i can feel them in my brain

And i don’t know what I’m doing, looking right through the mirror, whenever I’m alone that shits like headlights to a deer
You came down and you talked to me, told me that you missed me too, you will never understand all the crazy shit that you pulled me through
I showed you my arm, where i put ink in my skin, i used to be a real shitty friend but I'll never leave you again
I saw you in the sky, i looked at you through the clouds, i felt you in my mind i know how crazy that shit sounds

But i feel good now that i listened to you, good now that i feel you here, just like in my ten toes, you with me we can conquer fear
I hope when they all listen, they finally understanding, all the pain that we all go through yeah it’s hard but it can be managed
Im turning it into strength, all the hate and the complaints, the people hate me here, but I’ve never been one for fakes
Every time i lose myself, I’m shown what i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be another kid in this town killin’ somebody’s dream

I want it all man i want it all, tell me i can't have it
Couple people broke my heart it turned me to a savage
And i was one of them...

Disappointed by my own path, feeling like i took the wrong road, askin’ myself if its okay to go the whole way if i sell my soul
Now my eyes closed but I’m steering strong, fingers crossed they won't steer me wrong, I’ve been going off so much i think its bout time for a sad song
Goddamn i don’t want it tho, never wanted whats best for me, i been chasing women round the whole world with a down bitch right next to me
Damn I’m stupid, and i know the root of my problems, but the way that they been shaping who i am i don’t wanna solve em

I don’t care if i cry again, swear I’m in a better place now, been a minute since i told myself I’m okay, i just need a break now
Spending money online, tryna make myself happy, they all talk shit online but when they see me they ain’t laughing
Momma tell me that she love me still, but she see me in a different light, looking back I think I was mad at myself every time I picked a fight
And I’m sorry, cuz i know that shit been stupid, but when I’m in my head and I judge myself I’m ruthless

And I just can't be giving me the slack i give to others, cause’ I’m chasing all these dreams like running under covers, me and Brandon black and white but shit we still be brothers, and if i lose another homie imma be in trouble

Damn