Wide awake

I'm wide awake
I've seen you in my dreams
Where you would melt my pain away
Wrapped around me
Heart is pounding
So much more than I can take
And I don't know how we got here
But I don't think that it's right
'Cause I still hold my tongue
When you lay next to me
And I won't drive you home tonight

Lost in the moment
Close my eyes I'm trying to hold it
All the time I thought we approached it
With soul and mind right and hearts wide open
From the way you first looked at me
You pulled my heart strings
My homies dapped me
I had no doubt you would be there all my life
All the nights you cried
I stayed by your side
Am I crazy for thinking maybe
That in your moment of need that you gave me
A shred of purpose, a speck of joy
But now my hearts cold can't fill the void you left
Now I lay here with eyes wide open
Next to this new thing, I suck at coping
And I'm gon' hurt her, the way you hurt me
And she gon' do the same, it don't ease the pain
Oh no no

I'm wide awake
I've seen you in my dreams
Where you would melt my pain away
Wrapped around me
Heart is pounding
So much more than I can take
And I don't know how we got here
But I don't think that it's right
'Cause I still hold my tongue
When you lay next to me
And I won't drive you home tonight

You plus me's a soul on the run
I'm so scared of what I've become
What's it cost to live fake, happy, and dumb
When I'm with you I feel comfortably numb
I lock my mind away, so I can feel okay
About the things I've done
And all the things I say
So don't you call me out
Cause I won't stay around
I'd rather self destruct
Than feel you bring me down from this
I don't wanna stay, I don't wanna be
Any place that makes me stop and face this shame
You're my hiding place
You're my great escape
I'm still wide awake
Can't slow my mind
So I lay here with eyes wide open
Next to this new thing, I suck at coping
And I'm gon' hurt her, the way you hurt me
And she gon' do the same, it don't ease the pain
Oh no no

I'm wide awake
I've seen you in my dreams
Where you would melt my pain away
Wrapped around me
Heart is pounding
So much more than I can take
And I don't know how we got here
But I don't think that it's right
'Cause I still hold my tongue
When you lay next to me
And I won't drive you home tonight