why me

[Verse]
I just re-upped on a bunch of pills and syrup
Gotta watch who I keep near and be around, keep my spear out
OxyContin, X, codeine, and benzodiazepines (Yeah)
That's like my only source of income, no way, it ain't pay for streams, huh (Exquisite)
Pop the same shit that I'm sellin' 'cause I need it
I'm still waitin' on my court date for this pussy boy I beat up (Uh-huh)
I can't fear no man that bleed the same as me, I'll bleed him
Know my mama wish she never had me 'cause I'm evil (Bih)
Ah-ah, pour two ounces in half a liter
All these rappers playin' games once they follow the leader
They play hide-and-seek too, but they ain't never the seeker
Catch him walkin' out of school, stopped the V, he seen the reaper (Buh, buh)
My fans all wanna hear the trap shit, but I ain't no people pleaser
If I wanna rap emotional, I'll do it when I feel it
Right now, all that I can feel is I just need to change the breesh up
Fuck her once, pass to the next, I cannot wife no fuckin' treesha (Phew, yeah, ha)
Big wheels, five-percent tints, hop out with big sticks
Groupie bitch with a lil' sister for my lil' twin
Big Cullinan, ridin' with slatt like each week (SAB)
Every day of my life remind me more and more of Snowfall
Shit, I'll probably have ran up a lil' half a mil' 'fore snowfall (Uh-huh)
Tell my mama I quit the Oxy, I lie so much
Soon as I walk back upstairs, time to crush and snort up
(Ha, yeah, yeah-yeah)
I ain't gon' stop rappin' if the beat ain't finished, that's just stupid (Woo)
My heart fragile, I'ma play the best for Cupid
Ain't know it yet, but when he hit me, that's when my whole life was ruined
I still hate you
I don't know if I believe in God, but if I do, he probably hate me
All the shit that happened to me 'fore I even turned eleven
They told me it'd get better, but I'm way worse here at eighteen
Scars on my hands and my arms from cigarettes
Started cuttin' up my wrists and poppin' lot of Xanax (Yeah)
Started talkin' 'bout how I feel in some of my songs, it kinda helped
Then some Russians took my sound and took my emotions away
Fuck all y'all (Yeah)
Now I'm like a living barbed wire
When I go to court, I get at least four out of five charges
Go in rehab for three months, I'm tryna fix my life
Knowin' I'll just go to prison as soon as I get out, nice (Man, what's point?)

[Outro]
Like tell me, really, what's the—? (Woah)
Like tell me, really, what's the motherfuckin'—? (Woah)
Like tell me, really, what's the motherfuckin'—? (Yeah, yeah)
Like tell me, really, what's the mo—? (Woah)