Why does it still hurt?

Everyone said it would be better
Then why does it still hurt?
Maybe I’m just feeling under the weather
A day turned into a season

Why does it still hurt?
Why do the ashes still burn?
Why am I still crying over what the universe can never undo
Why am I still crying over you?

Everyone said I wouldn’t ever think of you one day
And that I’d be completely fine
I just wish that day was today
A page turned into a novel

My way of coping is counter productive
Photos of you in my phone, self destructive
They make me feel so goddamn exhilarated
High off of you, fucking faded