Why am I so different?

[Intro]
But I think of the goodness
And all he has done, for me
My soul flies out! Hallelujah!

[Verse 1]
Don't tell me to cheer up
I don’t want no more pity in my cup
It's hard for me to think that I deserve love
Cause no girl could love my past, there's no luck
I’mma keep it real, chief, I don't understand
Someone explain what it's like to be a normal man
I'm not mad, I just want to figure where I stand
I'm prayin for an answer, I can finally feel the father's hand
I guess I finally done lost my grip
Cause I live inside a world where I don't fit in
I hate my skin, I smile but it's all pretend
Look, I’m sorry, but I won’t buy into none of your trends
How did I get so lonely?
It feels like nobody really knows me
God, will you give your hands, can you hold me?
Felt the whisper on my skin, make me holy (please make me holy)

[Chorus]
Why can't I fit in?
Why am I so different?
God, can you fix this?
Cover my body in bliss
Cause I know I will be OK
Why can’t I fit in?
Why am I so different?
God, can you fix this?
Cover my body in bliss
Cause I know I will be OK

[Verse 2]
I actually thank God for my anxiety
And I know it sounds strange
But I know that there's somebody somewhere
That will listen to my music and relate to my pain
Don't you dare give up on me
Mental gettin weak
And my body's aren’t (?)
Dreams so dark, I don't even wanna sleep
Catch me fightin back, got me down on my knees
Protect me from dark schemes
And this is just the way I made me
And I should be proud, even though I'm crazy
But it's so hard when my mind gets hazy
Demons gettin mad, and I hope they hate me
Still the same kid y'all would make fun of
Don't say sorry, but it's cool, I still love you
Wounds start to heal from the time I would cut up
But I'm still insecure, and my mind won't shut up

[Chorus]
Why can't I fit in?
Why am I so different?
God, can you fix this?
Cover my body in bliss
Cause I know I will be OK
Why can't I fit in?
Why am I so different?
God, can you fix this?
Cover my body in bliss
Cause I know I will be OK