Why am i like this

[Chrous]
Always stressed
And depressed
Wanna die
Everytime
Spending checks
On my ex
While i'm rolling up a blunt
Popping pills
Tryna heal
Fill the void
With some drugs
I'm so high
I can't feel
Pouring lean
In my cup
Catching feels
Was it dealt
All i do
Is get hurt
This ain't real
Pop a pill
Light up with my [?]
I just keep
Spending bands
Fall asleep
Off the xans
I'm so high
I can't stand
Face my fears
No i can't

[Verse 1]
Suckin up my life
Like a bunch of fuckin leaches
She took out my heart
And then she rug it into pieces
I'm always on my feels
I hope that momma doesn't see this
And we've been getting closer
And i swear i hear a [?]
She say we need to talk
But baby what the fuck you mean now
She say she likes the red
That's why i call her Marceline now
She treats me like a [?]
To fuckin chip up on her shoulder
She's shoven up and numb
Because she's thankfull that it's over

[Chorus]
Always stressed
And depressed
Wanna die
Everytime
Spending checks
On my ex
While i'm rolling up a blunt
Popping pills
Tryna heal
Fill the void
With some drugs
I'm so high
I can't feel
Pouring lean
In my cup
Catching feels
Was it dealt
All i do
Is get hurt
This ain't real
Pop a pill
Light up with my [?]
I just keep
Spending bands
Fall asleep
Off the xans
I'm so high
I can't stand
Face my fears
No i can't

[Verse 2]
I don't wanna face the fuckin truth no
I needed some instructions cause i don't know what to do now
She's always wearing Tommy baby you ain't even flexing
I'm looking uo because you left in that direction
You always run from your problems like a race now
You hide your pain behind the smile on your face now
You don't care about attention i've been giving
We all been hurt before cause it's a part of living

[Chorus]
Always stressed
And depressed
Wanna die
Everytime
Spending checks
On my ex
While i'm rolling up a blunt
Popping pills
Tryna heal
Fill the void
With some drugs
I'm so high
I can't feel
Pouring lean
In my cup
Catching feels
Was it dealt
All i do
Is get hurt
This ain't real
Pop a pill
Light up with my [?]
I just keep
Spending bands
Fall asleep
Off the xans
I'm so high
I can't stand
Face my fears
No i can't

[Outro]
I'm feeling like i'm loosing my mind, my mind
I can tell that you've been feeling really stressed though
Take a seat and pop a molly with your ex though