Why am I alive?

[Chorus:]

I've been thinking bout my life, tell me, why am I alive?
Tell me how did I survive all the hardships in my life?
Yeah these people want me dead, but they don't even try
I'm losing all control, but I think that I'm alright
I've been thinking bout my life, tell me, why am I alive?
Is there a greater goal, when I'm dead, will I arrive?
To a better place to be, or am I from the other side?
But don't look into my eyes, I'm a demon in disguise

[Verse:]

I've gone stark and raving mad, but I think that it's okay
I don't think that this is bad, but I'll never be the same
Because seeking all this power has been driving me insane
I might be cheating life, but I've everything to gain
Power calling me, tryna get back control of my life
Ain't no starving me, I will feast, famine I despise
I guess I'm a beast, need the wealth, o Mammon, where art thy?
All the same, you will all dissapear when you all die
Yes, my fall's traumatic, yet I am continuing to thrive
But you talking bout your problems, getting tears all in your eyes
You can call up on your ratchets, pull up, you meet your demise
I'll consume your very being, yes, now your soul is mine
I myself was born a human but a ritual's complete
I was always meant for more, but how much else could there be?
I'm out taking souls and hoarding gold and killing when I please
I'm hiding in plain sight, give a devil what he needs

[Chorus:] (x2)

I've been thinking bout my life, tell me, why am I alive?
Tell me how did I survive all the hardships in my life?
Yeah these people want me dead, but they don't even try
I'm losing all control, but I think that I'm alright
I've been thinking bout my life, tell me, why am I alive?
Is there a greater goal, when I'm dead, will I arrive?
To a better place to be, or am I from the other side?
But don't look into my eyes, I'm a demon in disguise