Whole is an open letter to singer Chris Volz’s adoptive mother, who committed suicide when he was just 12 years old.
[Verse 1]
So maybe I am bound by fate
A problematic scarring induced by hate
It never seems to all pan out
Is that what all this teaching is needed to scout?
You seemed to have a bad effect
Your rules and contradictions I would neglect
Though not my fault you made me feel
Like my own education wasn't truly real
[Chorus]
Then you came right in, tearing out my soul
How could all this loss be your only goal?
I'm left standing here, desperate in the cold
Since you took your life, mine has not been whole
It has not been whole
[Verse 2]
So there I stood, a scolded child
The reasons never questioned
My pain's been filed inside this place that makes me feel
I learned life is unfair and that is very real
[Chorus]
Then you came right in, tearing out my soul
How could all this loss be your only goal?
I'm left standing here, desperate in the cold
Since you took your life, mine just has not been whole!
My life is just not whole!
My life is just not whole
[Bridge]
While you try to overcome the lesson
Making the most of those questions that just keep me guessing
I'm looking longer, harder, further than I ever have
Solitude breaking me down, you always seemed glad
To rid yourself and stick me in that little pit
Personal growth as a child that mattered not a bit
Then I became the member that you hated most
Disrespecting the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
A small example of what the things you've done to me
Have changed in my life and changed the things that I can't be
I'll never be
[Chorus]
Then you came right in, tearing out my soul
How could all this loss be your only goal?
I'm left standing here, desperate in the cold
Since you took your life, mine just has not been whole!
My life is just not whole!
Whole was written by Chris Volz.