Who’s Hurting Now

[1st Verse]
Didn't want to see the world for what it was
Struggling to find out what I've become through it all
Learned to cope with handling my problems
Transparent seen like a ghost
Have I buried all I've lost
Walk with me in through the cemetary of my mind
Open up the gates to the place dead memories lie
Laid to rest waiting for their resurrection
Made a mess impatient to correct it
Inability to deal with what I've been faced with
Nothing but fragments couple of pieces
Disease is spreading it feeds the weapon
Heart my weakness my head is deadly
At any given point in time it reaches for my soul
Seaps in deep eventually will come to take it full control
Knows what it's like to go without for too long
Rooted closely to the source for the course of the song
Battles with my conscience I'm in need of a godsend
Many choices for my poison like I bar tend
Time to uncover what I've buried
Hoping to reach the point I worry
This is everything I've ever wanted
And you're telling me that it's weight I can't carry?
I'm packing up tonight it's time we hit the road!
Wasted energy meaningless things and people
Sleepwalker wanders once again
A very livid wicked sorcerer on the loose
Out to prove who he is
I've got in me a story on a journey for revenge
Money unimportant and I know where you live
Life is getting darker for you
I will hang you high above your mother
On the ceiling of her porch my friend

[Bridge]
And I become insane with intervals of horrible sanity
You saw me fall you saw it all
From so close but so far from beyond
And I visit your grave constantly
And I made these things you see
Out of us out of me out of nothing
But somehow look past
It feels incomplete overcast
Clouds and the shadows have found their way back

[2nd Verse]
Really couldn't make a difference I was only 16
Wasn't so focused and you never could open deep
Trapped in a state of an imaginary grace
No space to think in a labryinth a maze
A dreamer is one who is guided by the moonlight
Forced to see the dawn before the world rises
And the sun with its light in the mind of the one
Is it right is it mine is it bright enough?
Fallen stars don't glow shedding all their darkness
Trading it for what's left cold winter solstice
Summer's coming but I'm walking all alone again
Didn't want to do it but I had to see through it
I wrote the verse to this before it even happened
Reaching out for help but the words went unheard
Vanished and for what
I didn't deserve it
Our friendship was purchased
Sold it fucking worthless
Everything you never wanted it was coming true
Middle of the desert under blood red moon
Should've been sharing the both of our lives with the sun
Instead we're hurting praying that it don't rise up
It came and went I wish I had the patience
Sandman if you can keep me at a distance
Just this once if you must give it another chance
Nightmare in my life put yourself into my past devil wanna dance
Welcome to the tragedy I'm too familiar with fantasy
Recovery I've never fully healed I don't think I will
Feel the pills drugs alcohol calling up to God
Battling the inner strength pride ego
Damage imagery suffering from my final loss
Moving on remodeling admiring the scenery
Environment defining me it's hiding me inside of me
And that's fine to me