Who Am I? (Everything To Me)

[Verse 1]
I felt like i had to get on a track and just be honest again
'cause i felt like one day i won't be able to be honest with them
I don't know
I'm happy that i decide not to write when i'm down on myself
'cause if i decided to write everything i was feeling the other day
It'd be like
I feel like my friends don't like who i'm becoming
Enjoying the moment but then they're discussing
Wait
I rewrote that line like a hundred times
Used to say laugh in the moment but i feel like they fake laugh and they know it
I don't feel like i connect like we used to
Maybe i'm paranoid, maybe i'm the one who's drifting away
I feel like i could just leave and everything would be okay

[Hook]
Who am i? who am i?
This is everything to me, this is everything to me
This is still everything to me, to me

[Verse 2]
Yeah
I'm going back and forth like "do i go to work or find a way to toronto and do this performance? 'cause i know i would kill it and jack just explained its importance"
But the truth is, i've been dodging these shows
I don't think i'm ready for this solo solo movement
End of the day we're missingno. man, it's all love, said we straight fam
And now i'm tryna get this world tour 'cause i promised this girl that i work with
That she could come through when i make it
And i ain't really into making promises if i can't keep it
So i been working real hard on the low low on my confidence especially
Imma let it all out until there's nothing left of me
And i ain't really drank since i wrote fall, and shit, i ain't even smoke since i wrote glorious and y'all don't even know what that is
I haven't cried since my birthday like last year, or when macy died
I'm still sad inside, feel like a piece of me is missing
I only see you in my nightmares, you're the reason that i'm still here
You're the one who pulled me out like you were right there
Goddamn, that shit was so real