White Knuckling

[Verse 1]
Is this a rite of passage
Or a bad one-woman show?
Cause I keep crying in public
Riding the red line 'til it's closed

Sadness never was my habit
That was always his to claim
But the light he loves keeps dimming
I forget what keeps me sane

[Chorus]
White knuckling through the change
While I'm digging both my heels into the ground
When I hear her angels chew me out
Get off the train
Wipe your face
Let your fists hang down

[Verse 2]
My mom always says
She knows her kids are doin' fine
And she doesn't hear from us, but lately
I've been calling еvery night

Cause burned bеneath my eyelids
Lori is struggling out of her chair
But at least they stopped the chemo
So that she could die with her hair

And all my friends are overseas
And I don't miss them at all
So, I wander these familiar streets
And cry when I get cat-called

[Chorus]
White knuckling through the change
While I'm digging both my heels into the ground
When I hear her angels chew me out
Get off the train
Wipe your face
Let your fists hang down

[Verse 3]
Nothing makes me more aware
Of the goodness that I've seen
Like being absolutely terrified
The future can't compete

But I sense the wind is coming
So, I'm trying to grow wings
So that when it does, it billows
And gives me a song to sing

Cause I'm running out of metaphors
My neck is feeling strained
And if my audience is getting bored
Then, death, you take the blame

[Chorus]
White knuckling through the change
While I'm digging both my heels into the ground
When I hear her angels chew me out
Get off the train
Wipe your face
Let your fists hang down

[Outro]
Get off the train
Wipe your face
Let your fists hang down