White dreams

i have white dreams
billboards magazines
mighty praise accolades
top 10 lists and top 10 hits

so i climb dodge boulders
earn blisters but even
the top of the mountain
is white

i have a white boy i top
i dream on his long body
as his past bodies have long
built upon mine but when i cum

on the dip in his spine
even the colour of my pleasure
is white. body you betray me
the only brown i make

for sewer but for him
for him my brown body
makes white makes nice
if my cum was brown

would he still eat it? from my core
i seek courage
but even my bones
are white

is it my skin that betrays
this skeleton? i pray
for answers for my dreams
hunched back dim light

blue ink blank paper knelt over
wept over now i grasp why thirty-four
years of praying through writing
awoke no god

even
this page
is white
so i protest this page

mask it with words
words about being brown
about my mother
my motherland

but even these words
have white
dreams billboards magazines
crystal trophies

because what are words
without dreams
and what is a dream
if it is not white?