Where To Start

[VERSE]
They say the worst of your feelings will all come in waves
And with no way to speed up the time you're left drowning for days
Oh, I know that's how the saying goes
But at the very least could somebody
Lend me a little lifeboat

[VERSE]
I asked a question, you replied with the answer I feared
And in one second flat, well, my certitude all disappeared
Oh, in a daze I stumbled 'round black and blue
And I stayed in the fog 'cause the smell of it reminds mе of you

[Chorus]
And I have tried
To be strong for my mothеr
Who's worried I'm lookin' too thin

I've tried
To stop feelin' like I am a stranger inside my own skin
I've tried to imagine
What might happen the next time I agree to let somebody in;
I wouldn't know where to begin

[VERSE]
Sometimes I worry I'll stay feelin' this way for years
And when I go to that place, well, exhaustion's the least of my fears
Oh, I can't bear to take another loss
So I'll burn all my bridges before even needing to cross

[Chorus]
And I have tried
To believe all my friends when they tell me it's not gonna last
I've tried
Not to ruin my future by dwelling too much on my past
I've tried to imagine
Being able to truthfully say I'm alright when I'm lost
I wouldn't know where to start

[BRIDGE]
So I'll keep our photographs
Every moment I captured your love
And I'll store them somewhere they can't hurt my heart
Oh, I'm not ready yet
But I'm lookin' for where to start

[ENDING]
So I will try
(I will try)
(I will try)
Oh, I will try
I will try (try)
(I will try)
Oh, I will try
I will try
To believe all my friends and be strong for my mother
To know there's a world out there I can discover at last

Where to start will be soon in the past