Where Do I Even Start?

[Intro]
Yeah, yeah
Hey

[Hook]
Yeah, yeah
Where do I even start?
Everything is just bizarre
They all live in a façade
Thought they left me in the dark
But we all were in the dark
Swear this shit really my heart
Don't wanna make this shit a job

[Verse 1]
Used to worry about the stats
I could check 'em but I really
Just don't give a fuck about that
More and more I think about the numbers on a track
The more and more I'm thinking that this shit is fucking wack
More I go outside and take a second to relax
Less and less I stress about the future or the past
I ain't eat scraps and I ain't 'bout to kiss no ass
If my shit is trash, fuck it, let this shit be trash
I was getting too attached
Wasn't stepping up to the task
I was walking with a mask
Damn, I feel so different now
Mostly tell, used to believe it
Just fucking indifferent now
It's just the safest to assume
You won't stick around
I'ma race off on a low tank
It's a face-off, not Travolta-Cage
All the shit that they talk
When it's not to my face
But when they talk to me it's lowercase
They all just turn out to be snakes
I don't wanna take it to the face
She said, "Heard you're doing good, that's great"
I'm think I'ma leave it up to fate

[Hook]
Yeah, yeah
Where do I even start?
Everything is just bizarre
They all live in a façade
Thought they left me in the dark
But we all were in the dark
Swear this shit really my heart
Don't wanna make this shit a job

[Verse 2]
I was running laps
Let 'em get all the attention
I'll just be off in the back
Almost quit but shit, it's
Gonna take a whole lot more than that
This my point of living
That's a motherfucking fact
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 3]
And I'm best off
Won't settle for less, nah
I can't take a rest, dawg
I'ma scream my chest off
Always seem to mess up
Why am I always pissed off?
Couldn't be no less off
Couldn't be no less love
Ever since she fessed up
I'ma burn the rest up
'Cause I got all this pressure
Thinking about the past
Made me wanna blow my head off
So I don't think about it
Hit the road, yeah, I just head off
Yeah

[Bridge]
They not talking truth
That shit's a lie
It's a goddamn menace
Every time I spit a line
I'ma hit the clip
Right on mid high-rise
Lately, I've been trying
To enjoy the ride
I don't need the help
Been by myself this whole time
I can't work for someone else
I can't do no nine-to-five
Know anywhere else
I cannot survive
I cannot confide, baby
I can't be confined

[Outro]
And I still remember when I hit a thousand plays
Nothing felt as good, nothing felt as safe
And I still remember when I hit a 100k
Only thing I was thinking about was hitting 200k
Not tryna complain, fuckin' love how far I came
I know that it's coming even if it's coming late
Could've done without the fakes dawg, they'll drive me insane
Now I stay off in my own lane