WHERE DO I BELONG?

[Verse 1]
I do it to myself
Pick apart my shell
'Til I have nowhere to go home
Ruining my health
Refusing any help
This is something I will have to learn to control
I'm leaving my home
It hurts you I know
Leaving everybody that has come to grow close
I'm hurting myself, this never ends well
Tell me, is there a fix? 'Cause at this point I don't know

[Chorus]
My mom says I'm strong
I think she's wrong
Where do I belong?
Do I deserve to feel lost?

[Verse 2]
I've lost some hours, some years, and some friends
Chasin' a dream I don't think I can have
It's hard to believe in myself when I feel that I'm still incomplete like there's something I lack
For a whole fucking year I had panic attacks
They tried to drug me to help me relax
I think I blew up a little too fast
And I wasn't ready for what would come next
I fell off the earth cause I just couldn't cope
To the point where I'm still barely checking my phone
I've got nobody to blame but myself for the way that I'm always so fucking alone
A whole year has passed and I'm packing my bags
I don't wanna go, but I'm not turning back
I'm leaving my friends, and my home, and my mom and my dad, but

[Chorus]
My mom says I'm strong
I think she's wrong
Where do I belong?
Do I deserve to feel lost?

My mom says I'm strong
I think she's wrong
Where do I belong?
Do I deserve to feel lost?

[Outro]
Take me, break me, crush me
Maybe if you use me, I’ll feel like I’m good for something
I'm so scared of change that I’ve been holding onto nothing
If you were in my shoes, I guarantee you’d be disgusted