When i was suicidal

I always felt so numb
I'm never good enough for you
I swear this all went wrong
How do I keep holding on!

Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)
Just something to use till you recycle
(Don’t want you around I need to leave this town)
Never knew when I was young I’d have to lose it all
(Now I bite my tongue)
Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)

Let me out
End this aching burning inside of my chest
There's no way out
I can't find a rеason to wake up and let it out

I know its not in my head
But I'm just losing my sеnses
It keeps coming in waves
I knew that you never meant it
Took a knife to my heart
Rather gun to my head
But I don't wanna ever see you again

You can't wait for love but I just hate myself
And all those bl**d-stained stories give you
Nothing but a taste of empathy

Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)
Just something to use till you recycle
(Don’t want you around I need to leave this town)
Never knew when I was young I’d have to lose it all
(Now I bite my tongue)
Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)

Do I fade away to nothing
(To nothing)
And I swear this past few years
Swear there crushing
Crushing me!
I told myself I'd never give it all up
But ever since I was a kid no one cared enough
Now all the damage is done
And I don't wanna keep running away
(Away)
Run away from this, feeling tonight
And if you can't hear me it's fine
I'm just a sacrifice!

Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)
Just something to use till you recycle
(Don’t want you around I need to leave this town)
Never knew when I was young I’d have to lose it all
(Now I bite my tongue)
Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)

Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)
Just something to use till you recycle
(Don’t want you around I need to leave this town)
Never knew when I was young I’d have to lose it all
(Now I bite my tongue)
Where were you when I was suicidal
(I'm always breaking down when no one’s around)