When I Was Little

[Hook]
When I was little I weren't scared of the Boogeyman
I was scared of scumbag police in a bully van
Hitting robberies on Ilford Lane where the hookers hang
Tryna get those kicks Nanny said that I couldn't have
When I was little fam I never respected my teachers
I respected olders, badness and dealers
Mopeds, 110's, Avi's and Beemas
On my pushbike, up and down in my FILA's
When I was little fam I never knew I was poor
We was on the block lit, four ways on a draw
One pound chicken and chips, you couldn't want any more
You can't miss it if you never had or never seen it before
When I was little fam I never got attention from girls
Little Viper wears that trackie every day and he smells
Ain't been home for like a week, I'm like eleven or twelve
It was a couple years later when they sent me to jail
When I was little we used to do all-nighters
On the 25 bus to see the West End lights
Not a pound in my pocket but I miss them times
Cah we were just some hungry little kids them times
When I was little, a judge sent me Feltham for the summertime
It made me worse, I came out and got a gun and line
And since then I've been in and out a hundred times
When I was little, shit I thought friends last forever
But I've seen 'em come and go, it only made me better
And seeing my success probably only made them bitter
I learned from my mistakes and it only made me clever
When I was little I used to put my friends before my family
I wish it could go back to just my sisters and my Nan and me
Been a good kid, it weren't college or home-school
Instead she was writing me letters, sending me postals
Or I'm in the crackhouse and they're shooting up snowballs
I come home to shower and get a million phone calls
Blisters on my heels, I've been hitting 'em all night
Stressing out Nanny, she don't know if I'm alright
When I was little, I don't think I was afraid of the dark
My Mum's boyfriend used to beat her, I've got shame in my heart
Just thinking back, I just wished I put my blade in his neck
Instead I stayed out late in the park
When I was little, I didn't wanna be no doctor
I wanted a fed chase from the helicopter
I wanted to turn this Q into an OZ
I wanted to ride R6's like Pedro and Aubrey
When I was little, it was all Skepta and Ghetto
And Stryder, cah I'm a top boy on a level
Then it was Joe Black, Margs and a million pebbles
Hit jail, hit road, then it's back to the schedule
When I was little, I never thought I'd blow like this
Get dough like this
Put my pain on the beat and touch souls like this
How'd it go like this?
Got a bad bitch with me just to roll my spliff
When I was little, I never thought I'd blow like this
Get dough like this
Put my pain on the beat and touch souls like this